I couldnt retrieve the password for my old blog so I resorted to writting here instead. My supposingly non-personal blog. Shit this blog somehow withered and met an early death, its purpose un-met. I hate work (internship), I hate work so much, i will NOT do research work next time. I don't know what kind of person can dislike work before even going into the workforce. I AM suppose to love what I do, be inspired and all those thing. BUT THIS INTERNSHIP IS CRAP BECAUSE WE ARE DOING BIOCHEM WORK INSTEAD. omg we r chem eng students ok, bio is not part of the equation at all! HELLO~~~ if i hav wanted bio, would I take chem eng???? all the bio stuff, i left bio when i left sec sch. I feel like the supervisor is asking too much. doin experiments and reading? I jus dun hav grasp on the subject matter. no matter how i see it, a chem eng dept is not equipped to do research in the project title without help from ppl from bio.
I had to relearn chromatography, amphoteric. THERE is NO ENGINEERING principle needed for this project. AND I JUST WANT TO USE CAPS COZ I LIKE IT. NOW IM DOUBTING MYSELF, AM I A LOUSY ENGINEER? I TOT OF LETTING THIS GO, GO HOME EARLY, DO INTERNSHIP NEXT YR INSTEAD BUT THEN I WOULD BE WASTING MY 1 MONTH HERE AND ABANDONING MY FREN. WHYYYY DID I GO INTO RESEARCH. I SHUD HAV BEEN DECISIVE.
I HAVE NO PASSION IN WHAT IM DOING RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I AM NOT TRAINED IN DOIN THESE THINGS. I FIND THE WHOLE PROJECT DIFFICULT.
I wish im blogging in xanga.
what do i want? what do i want?now i feel stupid cz im asking stupid questions.why is it that people are never contented with what they have. they go out and look for somthing they want only to realize evrything they need is back whr they come from. oh how i wish im those who know what they want to be the moment they r born.
On another note, i went to the Pompeii exhibition at the musuem yesterday. Pompeii was destroyed in 79CE when mount vesuvius erupted. The casts of human body who were buried in the pryoclastic ash were real casts made in the 19th century. there was 1 where a man was crouching and covering his mouth so that he does not inhale ash and toxic gases.the artifacts were at least 2000 yrs old. at first it din hit me on old ancient the stuff thr are until i saw this copper water barrel used to dispense water at the dinning table of old roman people. there were scratchings/carvings on it, with sharp object, like how u get vandalism on phone booths or bus windows. It made me think which roman kid carved those letters and why did he carved them on the nice barrel and if he got caught in the act. it was said that water barrel from those time in other roman cities eventually wear out with time and were melted. the volcano event preserved those artifacts. minted roman coins, gold jewellery, frescoes. a walk back in time. the city of pompeii only had 20000 dwellers and yet at its time it was regarded as a thriving port town.
